Monday, August 3, 2009

Change

As I was lying in bed last night, I started thinking about the impending future. I have finally gotten used to high school, finally gotten the hang of balancing my classes and having a good time, finally able to take the classes I want to take rather than the classes that I have to take (one of the perks of being a Senior I guess), and finally am with the guy I've liked since the 8th grade. And all that is gonna change in less then a year.

I'm not sure I'll continue blogging when I get into college...might not have the time or the interest..or just might be too lazy like I've been this summer. Ive been considering keeping a journal/diary instead since that s basically what this blog has been, but censored...

Dont even know what I'm going to do for college, I've been considering community college for the 1st 2 years and maybe get my degree to be a dental hygienist/assistant...that would mean 4 years of community college. Another thing I've been thinking about is applying to UF and if I dont get accepted do community college...but thats probably stupid. Thing is I dont know what I want to do...Acting, Dental Hygienist, Environmental Lawyer, History Teacher/Professor, or Psychologist.

I've always been good with people, listening to them, helping them, I get along with almost everyone...I'm passionate about helping the environment, and I enjoy acting; its fun.

But I'm smart...and my friends are smart, sometimes I think about the peer pressure that goes in to college, where to go, what to study, staying close to friends...but we cant base our lives on everyone elses....and in the spring at the NHS banquet the little pamphlet had all the graduating seniors and what college they were going to...and I dont want **CC to be there.

Last year went by extraordinarily fast... and I dont want that to happen this year...I'll miss everyone too much..I dont want to go out in to the real world, I would miss my bedroom too much. lol. Its really comfortable and how I want it now. Can't take my room to college with me either...

~Molly

1 comment:

~vanessa said...

Gosh Caitlin! You sound so melancholy. :( It's true, it will be a HUGE change, but there's so much we'll miss if we only focus on college! It's our SENIOR year! We have to enjoy it while it's still here! :)
Plus, God's got some amazing plans in store for us. He'll work it all out. :)